i’ve been at work for an hour and a half. so far, i’ve gone through my email, put on my makeup, and run to the store to get my contribution to the salad party at team meeting today. I got crumbled bleu cheese, crumbled goat cheese, dried cherries, and a cherry balsamic rosemary dressing. anyway, so much for my quiet and productive early morning.

i’ve been at work for an hour and a half. so far, i’ve gone through my email, put on my makeup, and run to the store to get my contribution to the salad party at team meeting today. I got crumbled bleu cheese, crumbled goat cheese, dried cherries, and a cherry balsamic rosemary dressing. anyway, so much for my quiet and productive early morning.

• i am currently bleaching my teeth. my goal is to do it every night for the rest of the week. then the whole process should be finished.
• my face is exceptionally broken out. i’m pretty sure it’s stress. like absolutely, totally sure. i’m not sure how to reduce stress in my life. i do yoga 5 or 6 days a week, but I can’t think of anything else.
• my cat was preparing to vomit, so i grabbed a piece of junk mail and put it in front of her where it looked like she was headed with the puke. guess what. yep, hot cat barf all over my hand.
• then i was sitting on the couch and my dog was next to me. he got up and a couple minutes later i noticed a couple of little brown spots where he’d been sitting. yep, it was poop. he had a little poo crumb in his fur. so i got that on my hand too.
• i’ve washed my hands frequently and thoroughly tonight.
• i think i’m going to get a new bed this week. if not this week, then this weekend for sure.
• i love it in yoga class when i get praise from the teacher.
• i think i need to go back to debtors anonymous. i mean, i do need it, but do i need it more than i need not to add one more thing to my already busy schedule? doing a cost/benefit analysis.
• i also really need al-anon, but same dilemma as with DA.
• i’m feeling like my life is falling apart. it’s not, yet, but i am juggling too many balls and fear they will all come crashing down.
• i meant to make a different kind of list tonight but I forgot and now i’ll have to do it tomorrow.
• i want a haircut/color, a facial, and a manicure. can’t afford any of those right now. i SUCK at money.

bad things and good things

  • bad: one of my two pairs of standby jeans ripped in the crotch this morning.
  • good: i had a really good conversation with moo this morning about principles and deepish stuff.
  • bad: i have an obnoxious zit right on my cheekbone.
  • good: my meeting was amazeballs. so nourishing.
  • bad: i was pulling out if a parallel parking space and had what seemed at first to be a minor bump up against another car. turns out it ripped my whole fucking bumper off.
  • good: i had a delicious fucking BLT at brunch.
  • bad: i don't have enough money for the auto deduction from my checking account to pay for my car & homeowners insurance and don't get paid until halloween.
  • good: my house is pretty clean and clutter free.
  • bad: i am skipping yoga.
  • good: i am going to have fun decoupaging instead of yoga.
  • bad: i think i'm out of bad things.
  • good: i've got some incredible friends with whom i share genuine intimacy on an emotional level.
  • bad: oh, yeah, i'm confused and mixed up about some big things and don't feel confident in my own judgment right now.
  • good: i process my thoughts and feelings with friends i trust implicitly, most especially heather/serenebabe.
  • good: i'm happy right now, in this moment.
so this just happened. we got the bumper off and it’s driveable, so i don’t think i’m going to fix it for awhile. and i seriously can’t report it as an insurance claim.
but i’m all, “oh, well!” and fuck it, man, i’m staying happy today.

so this just happened. we got the bumper off and it’s driveable, so i don’t think i’m going to fix it for awhile. and i seriously can’t report it as an insurance claim.
but i’m all, “oh, well!” and fuck it, man, i’m staying happy today.

five for friday

1. i didn’t get to go to yoga today because i promised my boss i would stay at work until i finished the stuff i was like a month behind on.

2. my husband is washing my yoga clothes. sweet man. i sweat a lot at yoga, and usually wear my clothes at least twice before washing them. it’s not gross, it’s preservation (of the clothes) and conservation (of water and resources).

3. i’m having some women over tonight to watch tv and decoupage. that probably sounds dorky, and it probably is. i’ve found i enjoy myself way, WAY more when i’m not busy being cool.

4. i need to do some cleaning before my friends come over and i’m actually not dreading it. i am in touch with how good i feel when the house is straightened up and clean, so that reward makes the cleaning into self-care, which feels good.

5. my dog is getting more and more needy as far as being close to me and getting attention. i wonder if he knows he has a degenerative illness that will be his demise.

feet up friday 

taking a little break before finishing my auths for last month. i procrastinated a LOT on this. so i can’t leave until they’re all done. which might mean missing yoga, boo hoo. but i think i can get them done in the next hour. one thing that’s helping, i’m listening to satellite radio and the “classic college radio” station is having a weekend of shoegaze. my bloody valentine, jesus and mary chain, and curve so far. love. it’s perfect for a chilly gray fall afternoon.

feet up friday

taking a little break before finishing my auths for last month. i procrastinated a LOT on this. so i can’t leave until they’re all done. which might mean missing yoga, boo hoo. but i think i can get them done in the next hour. one thing that’s helping, i’m listening to satellite radio and the “classic college radio” station is having a weekend of shoegaze. my bloody valentine, jesus and mary chain, and curve so far. love. it’s perfect for a chilly gray fall afternoon.

sitting on the phone on a conference call with our IT company and the cisco guy while they’re trying to fix the auto attendant function on our phones so people can leave messages for me directly. 
i feel crappy. i slept in my makeup last night. woke up with a headache. still really congested and cruddy with this cold that’s hanging on forever. 
i could (and should) be doing paperwork while they’re rebooting the voicemail system and i’m just sitting here, but tumblr feels like a better use of my time. not really, but i’m doing it anyway. 
so, how’s your day?

sitting on the phone on a conference call with our IT company and the cisco guy while they’re trying to fix the auto attendant function on our phones so people can leave messages for me directly.
i feel crappy. i slept in my makeup last night. woke up with a headache. still really congested and cruddy with this cold that’s hanging on forever.
i could (and should) be doing paperwork while they’re rebooting the voicemail system and i’m just sitting here, but tumblr feels like a better use of my time. not really, but i’m doing it anyway.
so, how’s your day?